I was recently talking to a new, good friend of mine at the beginning of the year. We were discussing our lives: what we had been through and what were hoping for. I told her that I felt like my life had been on pause. She then asked me something that haunted me--why did I feel that way? I realized that I was in control of my life and it was up to me to unpause it, so I have ! My only resolution this year is to live life to the fullest.
So the same week that we had that conversation, I decided to finally do something that I have dreamed about for a long time: write a movie. I know, it sounds crazy and many of you will think it will never happen. Or if it does happen, it won't be any good. I know this b/c part of me feels the exact same way.
This weekend I was thinking of all the reasons that I have to be happy, and all of the reasons that I have to be depressed. I came to the conclusion that in reality, it's ultimately up to me! So I choose to be happy, and I choose to work on this script.
So hopefully, you are wondering what it's about, right? Well, all I will say for now is that its going to be a true story about how the CIA was involved in the crack cocaine epidemic of the 80's.
Thanks to everyone who will support me, and to everyone else...I am going to be myself regardless ! And to my friend, thank you for inspiring me, not only by our conversations, but by living it by jumping out of a plane !
About Me
- Benjy - i am paradox
- First of all, I believe in love. You know, that reach for the stars, head over heels, makes your heart beat faster and your palms sweat, life changing, make you into a better person for someone else kind of love. That's also why I believe in God, and that they are one in the same. Without love, nothing else matters. I really dig music, art and film because they remind us of everything both good and bad in this world, and that another world exists outside of this one. I'm a pacifist. I am a follower of Jesus, although not a very good one. I am usually too liberal for most christians, and usually too conservative for most normal people. I don't think that foreign terrorists were the cause of tragedy on September 11th. I think the so called war in Iraq is nearly as bad, if not worse, than Vietnam. I think it should be ended immediately. I am shocked at how many of our freedoms are being lost by the patriot act. I usually bring politics and religion up in conversation, even when meeting someone for the first time. Life may not always go the way that you want or turn out exactly like you wish, but it's also too short for regrets.
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